circle the drain.

i love that song.

so i need to be studying chemistry and junk, buttttt yanno - i have it instilled in my head that i absolutely can not do it, and honestly i really don’t think that i can. it’s so tough. killing me to have a c though. that is notttt cool.

but anyways, so the photo post thingy majig button on here wouldn’t work the first few times i tried it, but now it will. so i thought about making all my post actualy photo ones instead of text ones with pictures added, but then i couldn’t do my quotes in between like i like. and it doesn’t really matter anyways because this is pretty much for me considering there’s not many who look at it? so yeah. lol.

I’m not like anyone you’ve ever known, and maybe that scares you a little bit because here you are with a girl that actually cares for you and for once in your life, you don’t know how to deal with that

People come into your life for a reason, a season, or a lifetime. When you figure out which it is, you’ll know exactly what to do.

It’s crazy how he can’t bear to see me by another guys side, but he doesn’t want me right by his, either.

I don’t understand how a woman can leave the house without fixing herself up a little, if only out of politeness. And then, you never know, maybe that’s the day she has a date with destiny. And it’s best to be as pretty as possible for destiny.

have a sweatshirt just like this one. :)

when my internet randomly stops working - i always take it as a sign that i need to go do my homework…..
because usually that is the case.

my god, that is one BEAUTIFUL smile.

Get off the computer. Go fall in love or something.

The best relationship is when ;
you both know you’re in love with each other, yet you remain friends.
And your feelings grow stronger.

He’s the kind of boy i’d love to get stuck with on the top of the Ferris Wheel.

stress.

watched all of nightmare before christmas last night. end almost made me cry. beautiful.

my whole everything if being so weirdy this month. what is up?

oh, and i hate snow now. its so freaking cold. i seriously have no idea how i’m going to tolerate this all winter.

yay for naptime and coloring books and warm fuzzy jammies from the grandparents. :)

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going into school late, i’ll probably have thursday school or some shit. slept all evening and all night. feeling like pooooooop.

I need a boy to give me a big hug and say, 
”sorry my whole gender sucks”.

reminded me of tangled. :D

As cliche as it may be, I don’t know what I would do without you. If all of a sudden you were ripped out of my every day routine,  my world would comecrumbling down.  

dude, i’ve only watched some of the first one and the last one and i already loved them. and i thought this was super sweet.

If a girl can put up with you through your worst days, then it’s kind of obvious that you shouldn’t let her go.

When there’s something you want; fight for it. Don’t give up no matter how hopeless it seems, even when you’ve lost hope, cause years from now you’re gonna look back and wish you gave it one more shot, cause the best things in life don’t come easy.

No reason to stay is a good reason to go.

If you’re getting pushed away, don’t hold on tighter. Letting go when you’re getting pushed is the only way he will feel what it’s like without you. Even though it’s the hardest thing to do, do it for him. (definitely love how my quotes contradict each other. lol.)

The grand essentials to happiness in life are: something to do, something to love, and something to hope for.

At some point you will realize that you have done too much for someone, that the only next possible step to do is to stop. Leave them alone. Walk away. It’s not like you’re giving up, and it’s not like you shouldn’t try. It’s just that you have to draw the line of determination from desperation. What is truly yours will eventually be yours, and what is not, no matter how hard you try, will never be.

snow.

it’s pretty - but wayyy too cold, and traps me in the house, and makes everything muddy, and every status that you see is about it.

really?

i’m gonna color.

Cause that’s what life’s about. It’s about the times where you lay in the grass next to someone you love. It’s about the color of the sky, it’s about a roaring fire on a winter eve. Everybody hurts, everybody bleeds. Everyone laughs & smiles & loves. & that’s all that it is. There’s no meaning of life, it’s nothing that can be defined. It’s a matter of writing your own definition.

i believe that two people are connected at the heart, and it doesn’t matter what you do, or who you are or where you live; there are no boundaries or barriers if two people are destined to be together.

In every girl’s life there will always be that one guy; he’s the one who hurt you a countless amount of times, he probably caused you the most pain in your life, and he probably treated you the worst out of all the guys yet he’s the one you will fall the hardest for because with those bad times, and with the pain, he will then treat you the best and will always keep you coming back for more regardless of the pain he ever caused in the first place

:) holding hands is my favorite. i’m completely satisfied with just that.

The Chinese use two brush strokes to
write the word “crisis”. One brush
stroke stands for danger; the other for
opportunity. In a crisis, be aware of the
danger - but recognize the opportunity.
- john f. kennedy

Support music everyday, because there isn’t a day music won’t be there to support you.
- Hayley Williams.

I’m still hoping one day I might hear you say that I make you feel a way you’ve never felt
before. And I’m all you need and that you never want more. And we’ll say all of the right
things without a clue. And you’ll be the one for me and me the one for you.

You put your arm around my waist and pulled me closer
and it didn’t feel weird or crossing any lines. It made sense, it just felt right.

I believe in sleeping in. I believe in giving 100% when you only have 80%. I believe in jamming out by yourself in the car. I believe in kisses on the forehead. I believe in smiling until your cheeks hurt. I believe that you can have just as much fun sober. I believe in taking chances and making mistakes. I believe in having someone tell you that you’re beautiful. I believe in swinging on swings and running in the rain. I believe in miracles and random acts of kindness. I believe in saying hello to anyone and everyone. I believe in second chances. I believe that everyone’s lucky to be alive.

Here’s to the kids that will never have 100% confidence in anything they do, and to the kids who are okay with that.

tomorrow is friday.

yesssss.

All you can every really hope is that when they close their eyes they think of you too…

no matter how many coins you toss in the fountain, or how many shooting stars you wish on,
or how many 11:11’s go by. if it’s not meant to be then it won’t happen.

that’s the thing about people who mean everything they say. They think everyone else does too

i know that i should just let go, walk away, & not look back.
but, i don’t think i could handle knowing that you wouldn’t care if i did.

move on. it’s just a chapter in the past. but don’t close the book, just turn the page

i think that the only reason people hold onto memories so tight is because memories are the only things that dont change; when everybody else does

When a girl complains that a guy has no heart, it usually means he has hers

obsessed by a fairy tale, we spend our lives searching for a magic door, & a lost kingdom of peace.? -eugene o’neill

Rumors are vicious, talk is cheap. Words are malicious, secrets you should keep. Gossip is fake and it’ll make the deepest cut. So learn from the past and keep your mouth shut.

The most selfish 1 letter word: I. Avoid it.
The most satisfying 2 letter word: We. Use it.
The most poisonous 3 letter word: Ego. Kill it.
The most used 4 letter word: Love. Value it.
The most pleasing 5 letter word: Smile. Keep it.
The fastest spreading 6 letter word: Rumor. Ignore it.
The hardest working 7 letter word: Success. Achieve it.
The most enviable 8 letter word: Jealousy. Distance it.
The most powerful 9 letter word: Knowledgy. Acquire it.
The most essential 10 letter word: Confidence. Trust it.

i am in love.

with burlesque. christina aguilera’s voice amazes me.

cher was killer too. got the chills and all. :)

there is some hurt that we just never get over. and we tell ourselves that in time,
we’ll get better. but you know, hurt just hurts.

mistakes are always forgivable, if one has the courage to admit them.

i think part of the reason why we hold onto something so tight for so long is because we fear something so great will never happen twice.

it’s crazy how you think you actually meant something to someone, and they just turn around and prove you wrong.

the worse thing is caring about someone, wondering how they are & what they’re up to
when the truth is they’ve stopped wondering about you a long time ago.

the key is to trust people to be who they are. instead, we trust who we want them to be, & when they aren’t, we cry.

if we could sum up all the causes of hurt, pain, and hatred in one word, it would be ‘expectations’.

life’s like a piano. the white keys represent happiness, & the black keys show sadness.
but as you go through your life’s journey, remember that the black keys make music too.

move on. it’s just a chapter in the past. but don’t close the book, just turn the page

i know that i should just let go, walk away, & not look back.
but, i don’t think i could handle knowing that you wouldn’t care if i did.

that’s cool itunes, you can just not work.

didn’t wanna buy your freaking dollar twenty-nine songs anyways.

today fucking blows, might as well just say it….. but every time i look at my friend’s baby, her little face makes me soooo happy. like you don’t even understand. i love that little girl so much. and she’s the most beautiful thing i’ve ever seen. sooo, i don’t know what i’m doing. but i fixed my hair and put make-up on anyways because i’m sick of looking at myself without it. like, it disgusts me. my face is like, uneven and all this. one day, i’ll find someone who thinks i’m pretty without it. besides yanno, my mom. lol. ashgsrhae. WHY ARE THESE PICTURES JUST SHOWING UP AS CODES?! stop it. now. omgosh, i hate pretty people today. i’m so down on myself today it’s unreal. about had a nervous breakdown trying to do my eyeliner cause it kept screwing up. affnuweg. i need someone to come hug me but apparently not even my family wants anything to do with me today, thanks a lot - douche bags. see if i ever ask anyone to hang out ever again. BLAH. i need to paint my nails. i peeled off all my polish last night cause well, i was chewing on some gum and i was like playing with it. wrapping it around my finger and stuff and then the next thing i know my gum is crunchy and my nail is clear? so yeah. cool story bro, i know. my bedroom light hasn’t been on in days. and i’ve worn nothing but pjs. shower, put pjs back on. oh yes. having no life and no friends and being on lock down because your mother thinks you have pneumonia has it’s advantages. ;) i’ve slept a lot, too. gosh you ate a cookie? how freaking cool are you!? oh and what’s that, you took a shower? YOU’RE COOL TOO! oh wait, you had the best time you’ve ever had in your life with all your besties and then you, you’re blackachapanese now? man, if only i could be like you. OH SHOOT, and you’re phone’s dead? too bad no one wanted to talk to you anyways. and what’s that? you have the most amazing wonderful spectacular boyfriend ever and you haven’t seen him since this morning? goodness, bet that’s so tough. try being forever alone. oh, and you - you are the coolest of all hanging with your little friends and being a terrible influence and getting lung cancer and dying and yanno making the about the saddest person ever to live. yeah, i’m a bitch today. yeah, that post was talking about pretty much every fb friend i have. yeah, this town is wonderful. no matter how many coins you toss in the fountain, or how many shooting stars you wish on, or how many 11:11’s go by. if it’s not meant to be then it won’t happen. that’s the thing about people who mean everything they say. They think everyone else does too i know that i should just let go, walk away, & not look back. but, i don’t think i could handle knowing that you wouldn’t care if i did.

i need to quit ignoring the people

who actually like me and want to hang out with me. haha.

You never realize how much you like someone until you watch them like someone else.

i always say that i don’t hate people, and i mean, i really don’t think that i do. like, i don’t want anyone to die or anything - but there are some people that just the THOUGHT of makes me so angry that i get tears in my eyes. like really really just cannot stand some people. not even the thought of them. sjdgoiJEg. fuck you.

the key is to trust people to be who they are. instead, we trust who we want them to be, & when they aren’t, we cry.

i want to draw with chalk.

there is some hurt that we just never get over. and we tell ourselves that in time,
we’ll get better. but you know, hurt just hurts.

mistakes are always forgivable, if one has the courage to admit them.

i think part of the reason why we hold onto something so tight for so long is because we fear something so great will never happen twice.

it’s crazy how you think you actually meant something to someone, and they just turn around and prove you wrong.

the worse thing is caring about someone, wondering how they are & what they’re up to
when the truth is they’ve stopped wondering about you a long time ago.

Sooo, why is every song out there and every quote and just everything all about love. love love love. people are so pressured to fall in love. from the time that we’re so little we’re taught that that’s the most important thing. you know, fairy tales and all that shit. like that’s the only way you can have a “happily ever after”. so kids grow up just looking for that. and when they don’t find it, they’re heartbroken. that’s not real. it doesn’t happen that way and usually doesn’t end that way either. so glad we’re just setting ourselves up for disappointment. it’s all overrated. love is overrated. i’m in such a raw mood today. whatever.

maybe

i should start posting all those “forever alone” things, cause that’s me. :(

screw you all and all your plans and friends and your not having any time for me or flat out not wanting to hang with me. and screw sickness from keeping me from going to chain smoking aunt’s house to stay with my cousins from florida like i normally would be. break sucks. yeahhhhh.

The reason she doesn’t talk first is because she has a “vision” of a boy going out of his way just for her.

we may not be right for each other, but we’re young, the whole “soul-mates” thing doesn’t exist this young. we live in a world where all we do is strive for more. but why can’t we be happy with what we already have? if you can take a lesson from “you never know what you got, until it’s gone”, maybe we’d learn to appreciate what we have more often. you can’t always get the perfect moment, all you can do is make the best out of the circumstances. because there will never be the perfect guy, but there will be the guy you learned to love; his flaws and everything else in between.

Let’s play a game. I’ll keep you guessing and you’ll never win. Yeah, games are supposed to be your thing, but I’ve been practicing.

When words become useless, hold her hand.

thankfully my computer doesn’t yet either, butttt it did make me laugh. :)

i want to be the one you want. the one you need.
your reason for getting up in the morning,
rushing breakfast and hurrying about to catch a bus and a train
or even a fucking helicopter just to come & see me.
i want to know that you are mine & mine only.
i want that, just that one thing from you.

i want that nail polish. i really, really do.

waiting for you is like waiting for rain in this drought; useless & disappointing. -a cinderella story

Stultum est timere quod vitare non potes. -
It is foolish to fear what you cannot avoid.

At some point you will realize that you have done too much for someone, that the only next possible step to do is to stop. Leave them alone. Walk away. It’s not like you’re giving up, and it’s not like you shouldn’t try. It’s just that you have to draw the line of determination  from desperation. What is truly yours will eventually be yours, and what is not, no matter how hard you try, will never be.

i want a pair of flats in every color,

style, and pattern. :)

Time is too slow for those who wait, too swift for those who fear, too long for those who grieve, too short for those who rejoice, but for those who love, time is eternity.

obsessed by a fairy tale, we spend our lives searching for a magic door, & a lost kingdom of peace.
 -eugene o’neill

seasons are changing and waves are crashing,
& stars are falling all for us.
days grow longer and nights grow shorter,
i can show you i’ll be the one .

i remember every word you ever told me.
i can’t stop thinking about it.
so i keep talking. because i’m so scared that you’ll stop.

When a girl complains that a guy has no heart, it usually means he has hers

When you’re around someone so much, for so long, they become a part of you, and when they change or go away, you don’t know who you are without them.

Who do you think you are running around leaving scars, collecting your jar of hearts and tearing love apart. You’re gonna catch a cold from the ice inside your soul. So dont come back for me.

GET ME THAT PHONE CASE FOR CHRISTMAS BY GOLLY.

Sometimes I wish you would actually try talking to me again.
Maybe if I was more like you, this wouldn’t have been big to me.
And maybe if I was more like you, I wouldn’t be hurting. But then
again, if I was more like you, I would never know how to love.

you can wish upon a hundred stars,
but that won’t change a thing going on in your life.

sometimes i wonder

if rap lovers even realize what they’re listening to. some of the stuff they say. and most of it doesn’t even make sense. i’m js.

then again, some of the stuff i listen to is pretty depressing. so more power to ya i suppose.

daddy… i want a squirrel.

so how come your mind goes into overdrive at night and you all of a sudden get super hungry and everything you do becomes so loud when people are trying to sleep and then if you’re sick and night rolls around….well  you’re just doomed. :|

Stop trying to understand how she feels. Chances are you’ll never understand how much she truly loves you. How everything she does is for you. How every night she lies in bed thinking of only you. Because, you’ll never understand, because you honestly don’t care.

look at the stars. they’re the same stars as last week, last year. same as when we were kids, when we weren’t even born. in 100 years no one will ever know who we were, but they’ll know those same stars.

if “plan A” doesn’t work out, don’t worry, you still have 25 letters left

You know when I realized I loved him? It was when I realized that anything that ever happened, good or bad, I wanted to tell him about. He was the first person I wanted to know, and I couldn’t wait to tell him, and talk to him, and listen to him and it’s like I love learning new things every time I talk to him.

You are exactly who you want to be. Otherwise you’d change. - Hayley Williams

i’m never going to get all of my pictures put on here if i don’t quit saving more. dang it. lol.

Sometimes the smallest things take up the most room in your heart.
-winnie the pooh

Let’s play a game. I’ll keep you guessing and you’ll never win. Yeah, games are supposed to be your thing, but I’ve been practicing.